Today is a rough day, I am not going to lie. I have actually had a rough week. I usually try to make it to a coffee shop a few times a week to relax and write, but I did not make it once this week. Most of the week has been spent under my weighted blankets (32 lbs) on my bed with a migraine, or crying with an anxiety attack, and writing somewhere in-between. I went to the Emergency Room twice this week due to migraines, and neither time was fun. I have started getting anxiety attacks about going there because I do know all of the doctors and nurses and I feel horrible that they see me all of the time during my migraine season. Even though they have all told me that they are glad to see me as a patient in the sense that I am easy because they know what to give me, how to set up the IV for me because they know where to after seeing my arms so many times. Even after hearing that, knowing that the little airplane next to my name signifying that I am a “frequent flyer” there still makes me uneasy. I even took my MacBook to the Emergency Room and pounded out a story for my new book before getting meds! So, I am trying to amp myself up by listening to a Motown mix on Spotify.
On a good front though a little disability news. I spoke to my Medicaid case worker on Wednesday and got some things cleared up, so it looks like I will be approved for a program that I qualify that basically covers all of my medical premiums and copays, etc. Yay!
Another positive, I woke up this morning and after taking a shower checked my twitter notifications and saw that a tweet that I sent out three weeks ago about my book was retweeted, and the tweet has been seen over 2K times, and is still growing by the hour! I spent the day yesterday submitting to agents, and writing.
So far today, my best friend (of almost thirty-years next year) has been adding in memories of things that I forgot about of stories that I started writing. This really warms my heart because with my first book she stood back during my process of writing and publishing, then waited to read the book with everyone else when it came out. Now, she is reading stories when I send them along and showing coworkers to prove these things actually happened!
Sorry for a long blog. I hope everyone is doing well, and that you are all more productive than me today… or as productive as your body lets you be!