It’s been quite a couple months. I have been horrible with my promise of blogging regularly. So much has been going on in the past month and a half emotionally and with things outside of my control, which have left me frustrated.
I mentioned before that my bipolar was kicking in. I tried for a while to get through it all without going back on an antidepressant. I was off one for over six months and went back on one today. I was laying in bed a lot, not even watching tv, going to bed at 6 or 7pm and chalking it up to my migraines. I thought that if I got away for a week I would feel better and get out of my rut. I went to San Francisco and visited a good friend and had an amazing week! Then I got back, and found myself really depressed again. So…
Another strain is that I’m looking for a place to live in New York on my limited budget, and it is extremely difficult because most places require 40x your income and a high credit score. Because I was sick, I didn’t have utilities in my name for three years, so I don’t have a credit score, even though I have a line of credit, and I definitely don’t get make 40x the rental cost.
Starting over at 38 is hard. I know that things happen the way they should, and that timing is everything, but it doesn’t make it less frustrating.
On the book front… I have gotten some agents rejections, but some have been personable and not standard. They have said really nice things about the chapters I submitted. I continually get good reviews on goodreads and Amazon (FYI to other Amazon authors… they have pulled as well as not posted reviews from my book’s page. I don’t know if it’s a random IT thing or what, but it’s annoying.) I did get a 1 star review but it was hilarious, especially when I read the person’s profile. I didn’t fit into her genres, so of course I wasn’t her cup of tea. It also made me feel validated. Even Harry Potter books have 1 star reviews! Long and short, I need to put in work again because I slacked off and I need to promote, look for an agent and fine new avenues to get readers.
I hope all of you are doing great! Thanks if you read all of this!