In 1980, a psychiatric nurse at Chicago's Michael Reese Hospital (and mother of two) divorced her husband in the midst of a particularly troubled married life and decided to pursue her lifelong dream of an acting career. She was 40.
— Charlotte Clymer🏳️🌈 (@cmclymer) August 19, 2018
It’s been quite a couple months. I have been horrible with my promise of blogging regularly. So much has been going on in the past month and a half emotionally and with things outside of my control, which have left me frustrated.
I mentioned before that my bipolar was kicking in. I tried for a while to get through it all without going back on an antidepressant. I was off one for over six months and went back on one today. I was laying in bed a lot, not even watching tv, going to bed at 6 or 7pm and chalking it up to my migraines. I thought that if I got away for a week I would feel better and get out of my rut. I went to San Francisco and visited a good friend and had an amazing week! Then I got back, and found myself really depressed again. So…
Another strain is that I’m looking for a place to live in New York on my limited budget, and it is extremely difficult because most places require 40x your income and a high credit score. Because I was sick, I didn’t have utilities in my name for three years, so I don’t have a credit score, even though I have a line of credit, and I definitely don’t get make 40x the rental cost.
Starting over at 38 is hard. I know that things happen the way they should, and that timing is everything, but it doesn’t make it less frustrating.
On the book front… I have gotten some agents rejections, but some have been personable and not standard. They have said really nice things about the chapters I submitted. I continually get good reviews on goodreads and Amazon (FYI to other Amazon authors… they have pulled as well as not posted reviews from my book’s page. I don’t know if it’s a random IT thing or what, but it’s annoying.) I did get a 1 star review but it was hilarious, especially when I read the person’s profile. I didn’t fit into her genres, so of course I wasn’t her cup of tea. It also made me feel validated. Even Harry Potter books have 1 star reviews! Long and short, I need to put in work again because I slacked off and I need to promote, look for an agent and fine new avenues to get readers.
I hope all of you are doing great! Thanks if you read all of this!
Both of my books went free today for Memorial Day weekend on Amazon Kindle! Please repost! Much Love!
This morning has been all about submitting some of my first book to review by publishing agents. It’s not difficult, just tedious and repetitive. A lot of pasting in the body of emails. Luckily, I found a website that lists alphabetically all agents of nonfiction/memoirs that have emails that you can submit to… it’s been over an hour and I just got to the “C’s”. So, let’s all hope that this will help along with the past bouts with submissions since my first publication.
On a good note, my first book is still being read steadily on Kindle Unlimited (yay!) and hopefully this weekend when I have my three free download days I will get a lot of response for both books.
So how are you guys? Today, I am okay. No headache so far… all week is an on and off storm here so I am just biding time until I have to go to the Emergency Room. Let’s hope that I don’t, but based on statistics with me… Anxiety has been okay. It may amp up a bit over the weekend with the whole book download thing. I already check my Kindle updates a lot, but I get a little absorbed when it comes to people actually owning something I wrote.
Well, I wanted to be better about getting on here, so I wanted to check in and say hello!