anxiety, bipolar, Life, Uncategorized

When My Bipolar Kicks In

Hi Guys,

I had a really stressful weekend and yesterday it caught up with me.  My bipolar rarely comes out in me and if it does its for one day a month, and so far, it is creeping on two days.  I am cycling.  Yesterday I was depressed.  I woke up with a migraine at 4am from stress, and was at the Emergency Room by 730am.  By the time that I got home I was in bed for the rest of the day.  Halfway sleepy from meds, and the other half of me was lonely because I had two friends that promised that they would help me promote my free book weekend that did not.  All they had to do was share my post!

If you are not familiar with how Amazon works, you only get five days a year to let your book be available for free, so this was a BIG weekend for me.  And both of these people are good, old friends.  One is even a writer himself!  I really feel the loneliness of being the only person I know that is single, without out a longterm significant other or kids.  This entire weekend feels like you have to either be fucking someone or have given birth to a child for someone to really care about you.

It’s 11am and I have already went online shopping… that’s my mania.  I do not need to be shopping. I am just so angry.  I did not want to talk to either of those people, and I did not even talk to anyone yesterday, and I don’t really feel like it today either.  I even tried to call by best friend this morning, but she is too busy with her boyfriend.

My book downloads were horrible in comparison to last time, and I thought that they would be doubled because I had two books out for free.  I feel so unaccomplished and shitty about it.  I have been sending my info and samples to agents repeatedly, with a few denials, which I get because it’s a match game.  But overall, I feel like I am in a helpless spot and no one (except a few of you, whom I don’t even know personally that reposted my book info-Thank You!) is not helping me because everyone else is more important.  My parents are very supportive, but lets face it, were adults and need more than our parents.

To summarize I feel really shitty, and like I can’t get out of a hole and my moods are cycling.  I don’t need my antidepressant because I know that it is temporary, and once my money from a settlement comes through (which is delayed from the govt. by months) I can move to a new city, which has been planned for years and be in a better place emotionally, and physically.  I will be in a position to make friends and socialize again because here I am totally alone.  Anyways.  Sorry to unload, but I had to somewhere, I know you guys get in the same headspace.  Oh, and Fuck It All (FIA)

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They’re Free TODAY!!! (Sat & Sun)

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Hey Guys!

Both of my books went free today for Memorial Day weekend on Amazon Kindle!  Please repost!  Much Love!

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Read “Anxiety Too” NOW!!!

“Anxiety Too” by Liz Lea on Amazonlegos_a0c65870-d86c-40ef-a888-26171975a798

It’s finally here!  It’s out and about on Kindle!  Get it now for $9.99! Liz is back with her follow up to “Should I Have Told You That?: A Memoir” with more stories of shenanigans filled with heart involving family and friends. There are more stories of crazy things that happened as a kid, a teenager and a confused, but head strong twenty-something. Even in her thirties you identify with her experiences as an adult through the pages of this book. No matter what situation you are in, or well Liz is in, anxiety is always around and that is what makes this book so hilarious and relatable.

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Crunch Time Is Here Bitches!

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It’s here… I’m halfway done editing my new book!  Eeekkkkkk!  I’m working away at the Bakery.  I hope to have it Posted on Kindle by Monday!  Back to work!

“Anxiety Too”

Much Love!

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Weekly Update

Mom’s day lunch lewk yesterday… overlook the bruises from the Emergency Room trips… you all know how it goes.

IMG_5107I feel so sad using that term “weekly”!  This is unfortunately my “Migraine Season” so, my weeks are spent in and out of the Emergency Room.  Surprisingly though, I get a lot of work done for my book when I am there because it is so quiet in the room, and I can block out all sounds with my ear pods in listening to chill music while I wait to see the physicians and nurses, and wait to get my meds.  Of course, there is also the hours waiting to get a room.  More surprisingly, they don’t give me weird looks when I have my MacBook out and they walk in while I am typing because they know that I cope by putting my mind’s focus on something else until I can get medicine.  And let me tell you today I have a killer migraine, and would much rather be there now, but I do not want to leave my house!

I was lucky to get out yesterday for to celebrate Mother’s Day early with my mom and das, so that was nice, then I came home and indulged in my only reality TV drama “Southern Charm”.  Other than that I have been working hard on my book.  That’s why I have been so absent!  I have three chapters to finish that I have started, but are not fully completed.  I am getting some info from my best friend since she has a photographic memory to jog mine so that the stories are accurate.

Speaking of my next book, the last stories should be completed by hopefully Wednesday this week, then on to editing, and I *hope* to publish the book titled “Anxiety Too” sometime next week in time fore a free Kindle weekend for Memorial Day weekend.  So, get your calendars marked!!!  Later in the week I will post another excerpt from a story in the book to entice you all a bit.

I hope that everyone is doing well.  I am getting a procedure done tomorrow for my migraines, so I will definitely be out of commission tomorrow, but if I can I will try to be a good girl and be back here on Tuesday 😉

I hope that everyone has a great Mom’s day!

Much love

 

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Bloggin’ Out

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Hey People!

Sorry the long lag!  It’s been a long week.  I’ve either been at the hospital or at home in bed.  I did get out for a few hours yesterday to go to a festival with a friend and her toddler though.  Don’t worry, I had my MacBook with me as always at the Emergency Room typing away for my upcoming book that I am publishing in a few weeks, “Anxiety Too”.  Nothing keeps me (too) down.  All of you who also have chronic migraine know how we cope!

I did get good news yesterday… I got approved for a Medicaid program that approves my medical expenses for a year!  I am beyond thankful and excited.  Just another step in my road to finalizing all of my disability loose ends.

Aside from working on the book I am hard on the search for an apartment in New York or Brooklyn.  It has been VERY difficult.  It doesn’t matter what city you are looking to rent in, it’s a challenge.  My flight up to see places was pushed back due to medical appointments, so… If you have any leads on roommates or places under $700/month, let me know!

I hope that all of you are having a great end of the weekend.  Back to writing!  FYI, my book is still for sale on Amazon Should I Have Told You That? Six star review, and not just from friends!!!!  Consistent reads on Kindle Unlimited!

Much Love!

P.S.  If you have not check out John Mulaney’s new Netflix special “Kid Gorgeous”!