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I Know, I Know… I’m THE WORST at being consistent with my page…

So, it’s been a month.  Eventful, and not so much at the same time.  Getting settled in LA, and a semi daily routine.  After being here a week or two I was hit with so much emotion and stress from various things that I had to go to the Emergency Room with a panic attack.  Let’s start from there!

My beginning few weeks I had to wait for furniture that was continuously never delivered as promised.  I had a mattress and bags and boxes around me at all times.  Because almost everyday Wayfair PROMISED that my furniture would arrive I stayed in my room, watching TV and sweating from the heat because I only had a fan to cool the room.  Occasionally, I would leave to do things like go to Target and little government things I had to take care of immediately like healthcare insurance and EBT in California.  My furniture FINALLY arrived in a span of 10 days boxes trickled in.  Then I had to put it together.  I cannot emphasize enough how terrible Wayfair is as a company.  They ended up reordering ALL of my furniture, and letting me keep the original order when it came to my house.  FYI, the last box arrived three days ago.  Over a month after my original order.  In addition, parts were missing from my dresser, and there was no way to get the extra parts at the hardware store or anywhere.  So… I have three drawers that the faces will come off if I pull them too hard,  Seriously… Wayfair is the worst.  I’m hopefully selling my extra furniture this week.

On the health front, I have been doing amazingly well aside from the stomach bug that I caught at the end of this week after getting a doctor’s appointment so that I could get my thyroid and potassium checked.  Also, I needed referrals to a psychiatrist and therapist to schedule appointments.  Thanks Aetna… I have had to get my potassium checked frequently for about a year because my weight is always teetering around 100 lbs and it gets low.  And now I have to take prescribed potassium… yay! Over the last week or so I have been noticing how much I need talk therapy.  It has been two months since my last visit, but like I mentioned before I had to wait a month for a referral.  My bipolar traits have been coming and going.  I have been cycling some because I haven’t had talk therapy.  I haven’t met any friends yet other than occasionally hanging out with one of my roommates.  Migraines are non existent with the exception of one that I had as my Aimovig was wearing off, which I have discovered is normal for me.  Also, the first day of and after the shot I feel like absolute shit within 20 mins of the injection, so I plan to stay in those days.

Good things have been consistent.  I get to explore a lot of amazing places, and meet random people.  I have found my regular coffee shop in Silver Lake that is apart of my daily routine for a few hours a day about five times a week.  I can sit outside, get on my laptop and read in really pleasant weather.  I finally got to do two bucket list items in one week!  I went to see Paul Scheer and Friends at Largo, and see The Rocky Horror Picture Show at midnight.  Both were great, but I was so excited to go to the Paul Scheer show because I listen to his podcasts, and watch tv/movies he’s in.  Also, if you don’t already follow him on Instagram and Twitter.  My next bucket list item is to see a live recording of the Podcast How Did This Get Made.  Seriously check it out on whatever you have for podcasts.

I started my focus again for reading.  I have always found myself submersed in an activity for a period of time, and then I go back to it after months of a break.  Last week I finished two books (both memoirs) in three days.  I already have two more books that I have lined up/started.  Unfortunately, with that discipline of being immersed for a period of time it has kept me from writing for a while.  I have tried a few times to essay, but I get  a block.  In addition, I am in a limbo when it comes to figuring out what I want to do with my books.  I have been turned down by every agent that I have queried so far, so it’s a little disheartening after all of the positive responses to what I have written not only by friends, but strangers.  Right now I am trying to decide if I should regroup all together and take my books off Amazon, and try the route of looking for a publisher.  I am really undecided about how I am going to handle this.  I usually am good at making decisions, so this is really annoying me and always at the back of my mind.  I hate indecisiveness and that’s exactly what I am dealing with.

Okay, I’ve babbled enough.  Any advice on what to do about my books are 100% welcomed and encouraged.  Thanks if you read all of this!!!

Much Love.

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When My Bipolar Kicks In

Hi Guys,

I had a really stressful weekend and yesterday it caught up with me.  My bipolar rarely comes out in me and if it does its for one day a month, and so far, it is creeping on two days.  I am cycling.  Yesterday I was depressed.  I woke up with a migraine at 4am from stress, and was at the Emergency Room by 730am.  By the time that I got home I was in bed for the rest of the day.  Halfway sleepy from meds, and the other half of me was lonely because I had two friends that promised that they would help me promote my free book weekend that did not.  All they had to do was share my post!

If you are not familiar with how Amazon works, you only get five days a year to let your book be available for free, so this was a BIG weekend for me.  And both of these people are good, old friends.  One is even a writer himself!  I really feel the loneliness of being the only person I know that is single, without out a longterm significant other or kids.  This entire weekend feels like you have to either be fucking someone or have given birth to a child for someone to really care about you.

It’s 11am and I have already went online shopping… that’s my mania.  I do not need to be shopping. I am just so angry.  I did not want to talk to either of those people, and I did not even talk to anyone yesterday, and I don’t really feel like it today either.  I even tried to call by best friend this morning, but she is too busy with her boyfriend.

My book downloads were horrible in comparison to last time, and I thought that they would be doubled because I had two books out for free.  I feel so unaccomplished and shitty about it.  I have been sending my info and samples to agents repeatedly, with a few denials, which I get because it’s a match game.  But overall, I feel like I am in a helpless spot and no one (except a few of you, whom I don’t even know personally that reposted my book info-Thank You!) is not helping me because everyone else is more important.  My parents are very supportive, but lets face it, were adults and need more than our parents.

To summarize I feel really shitty, and like I can’t get out of a hole and my moods are cycling.  I don’t need my antidepressant because I know that it is temporary, and once my money from a settlement comes through (which is delayed from the govt. by months) I can move to a new city, which has been planned for years and be in a better place emotionally, and physically.  I will be in a position to make friends and socialize again because here I am totally alone.  Anyways.  Sorry to unload, but I had to somewhere, I know you guys get in the same headspace.  Oh, and Fuck It All (FIA)

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They’re Free TODAY!!! (Sat & Sun)

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Hey Guys!

Both of my books went free today for Memorial Day weekend on Amazon Kindle!  Please repost!  Much Love!

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Read “Anxiety Too” NOW!!!

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It’s finally here!  It’s out and about on Kindle!  Get it now for $9.99! Liz is back with her follow up to “Should I Have Told You That?: A Memoir” with more stories of shenanigans filled with heart involving family and friends. There are more stories of crazy things that happened as a kid, a teenager and a confused, but head strong twenty-something. Even in her thirties you identify with her experiences as an adult through the pages of this book. No matter what situation you are in, or well Liz is in, anxiety is always around and that is what makes this book so hilarious and relatable.

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Crunch Time Is Here Bitches!

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It’s here… I’m halfway done editing my new book!  Eeekkkkkk!  I’m working away at the Bakery.  I hope to have it Posted on Kindle by Monday!  Back to work!

“Anxiety Too”

Much Love!

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Weekly Update

Mom’s day lunch lewk yesterday… overlook the bruises from the Emergency Room trips… you all know how it goes.

IMG_5107I feel so sad using that term “weekly”!  This is unfortunately my “Migraine Season” so, my weeks are spent in and out of the Emergency Room.  Surprisingly though, I get a lot of work done for my book when I am there because it is so quiet in the room, and I can block out all sounds with my ear pods in listening to chill music while I wait to see the physicians and nurses, and wait to get my meds.  Of course, there is also the hours waiting to get a room.  More surprisingly, they don’t give me weird looks when I have my MacBook out and they walk in while I am typing because they know that I cope by putting my mind’s focus on something else until I can get medicine.  And let me tell you today I have a killer migraine, and would much rather be there now, but I do not want to leave my house!

I was lucky to get out yesterday for to celebrate Mother’s Day early with my mom and das, so that was nice, then I came home and indulged in my only reality TV drama “Southern Charm”.  Other than that I have been working hard on my book.  That’s why I have been so absent!  I have three chapters to finish that I have started, but are not fully completed.  I am getting some info from my best friend since she has a photographic memory to jog mine so that the stories are accurate.

Speaking of my next book, the last stories should be completed by hopefully Wednesday this week, then on to editing, and I *hope* to publish the book titled “Anxiety Too” sometime next week in time fore a free Kindle weekend for Memorial Day weekend.  So, get your calendars marked!!!  Later in the week I will post another excerpt from a story in the book to entice you all a bit.

I hope that everyone is doing well.  I am getting a procedure done tomorrow for my migraines, so I will definitely be out of commission tomorrow, but if I can I will try to be a good girl and be back here on Tuesday 😉

I hope that everyone has a great Mom’s day!

Much love