So, it’s been a month. Eventful, and not so much at the same time. Getting settled in LA, and a semi daily routine. After being here a week or two I was hit with so much emotion and stress from various things that I had to go to the Emergency Room with a panic attack. Let’s start from there!
My beginning few weeks I had to wait for furniture that was continuously never delivered as promised. I had a mattress and bags and boxes around me at all times. Because almost everyday Wayfair PROMISED that my furniture would arrive I stayed in my room, watching TV and sweating from the heat because I only had a fan to cool the room. Occasionally, I would leave to do things like go to Target and little government things I had to take care of immediately like healthcare insurance and EBT in California. My furniture FINALLY arrived in a span of 10 days boxes trickled in. Then I had to put it together. I cannot emphasize enough how terrible Wayfair is as a company. They ended up reordering ALL of my furniture, and letting me keep the original order when it came to my house. FYI, the last box arrived three days ago. Over a month after my original order. In addition, parts were missing from my dresser, and there was no way to get the extra parts at the hardware store or anywhere. So… I have three drawers that the faces will come off if I pull them too hard, Seriously… Wayfair is the worst. I’m hopefully selling my extra furniture this week.
On the health front, I have been doing amazingly well aside from the stomach bug that I caught at the end of this week after getting a doctor’s appointment so that I could get my thyroid and potassium checked. Also, I needed referrals to a psychiatrist and therapist to schedule appointments. Thanks Aetna… I have had to get my potassium checked frequently for about a year because my weight is always teetering around 100 lbs and it gets low. And now I have to take prescribed potassium… yay! Over the last week or so I have been noticing how much I need talk therapy. It has been two months since my last visit, but like I mentioned before I had to wait a month for a referral. My bipolar traits have been coming and going. I have been cycling some because I haven’t had talk therapy. I haven’t met any friends yet other than occasionally hanging out with one of my roommates. Migraines are non existent with the exception of one that I had as my Aimovig was wearing off, which I have discovered is normal for me. Also, the first day of and after the shot I feel like absolute shit within 20 mins of the injection, so I plan to stay in those days.
Good things have been consistent. I get to explore a lot of amazing places, and meet random people. I have found my regular coffee shop in Silver Lake that is apart of my daily routine for a few hours a day about five times a week. I can sit outside, get on my laptop and read in really pleasant weather. I finally got to do two bucket list items in one week! I went to see Paul Scheer and Friends at Largo, and see The Rocky Horror Picture Show at midnight. Both were great, but I was so excited to go to the Paul Scheer show because I listen to his podcasts, and watch tv/movies he’s in. Also, if you don’t already follow him on Instagram and Twitter. My next bucket list item is to see a live recording of the Podcast How Did This Get Made. Seriously check it out on whatever you have for podcasts.
I started my focus again for reading. I have always found myself submersed in an activity for a period of time, and then I go back to it after months of a break. Last week I finished two books (both memoirs) in three days. I already have two more books that I have lined up/started. Unfortunately, with that discipline of being immersed for a period of time it has kept me from writing for a while. I have tried a few times to essay, but I get a block. In addition, I am in a limbo when it comes to figuring out what I want to do with my books. I have been turned down by every agent that I have queried so far, so it’s a little disheartening after all of the positive responses to what I have written not only by friends, but strangers. Right now I am trying to decide if I should regroup all together and take my books off Amazon, and try the route of looking for a publisher. I am really undecided about how I am going to handle this. I usually am good at making decisions, so this is really annoying me and always at the back of my mind. I hate indecisiveness and that’s exactly what I am dealing with.
Okay, I’ve babbled enough. Any advice on what to do about my books are 100% welcomed and encouraged. Thanks if you read all of this!!!