anxiety, bipolar, Life, Uncategorized

When My Bipolar Kicks In

Hi Guys,

I had a really stressful weekend and yesterday it caught up with me.  My bipolar rarely comes out in me and if it does its for one day a month, and so far, it is creeping on two days.  I am cycling.  Yesterday I was depressed.  I woke up with a migraine at 4am from stress, and was at the Emergency Room by 730am.  By the time that I got home I was in bed for the rest of the day.  Halfway sleepy from meds, and the other half of me was lonely because I had two friends that promised that they would help me promote my free book weekend that did not.  All they had to do was share my post!

If you are not familiar with how Amazon works, you only get five days a year to let your book be available for free, so this was a BIG weekend for me.  And both of these people are good, old friends.  One is even a writer himself!  I really feel the loneliness of being the only person I know that is single, without out a longterm significant other or kids.  This entire weekend feels like you have to either be fucking someone or have given birth to a child for someone to really care about you.

It’s 11am and I have already went online shopping… that’s my mania.  I do not need to be shopping. I am just so angry.  I did not want to talk to either of those people, and I did not even talk to anyone yesterday, and I don’t really feel like it today either.  I even tried to call by best friend this morning, but she is too busy with her boyfriend.

My book downloads were horrible in comparison to last time, and I thought that they would be doubled because I had two books out for free.  I feel so unaccomplished and shitty about it.  I have been sending my info and samples to agents repeatedly, with a few denials, which I get because it’s a match game.  But overall, I feel like I am in a helpless spot and no one (except a few of you, whom I don’t even know personally that reposted my book info-Thank You!) is not helping me because everyone else is more important.  My parents are very supportive, but lets face it, were adults and need more than our parents.

To summarize I feel really shitty, and like I can’t get out of a hole and my moods are cycling.  I don’t need my antidepressant because I know that it is temporary, and once my money from a settlement comes through (which is delayed from the govt. by months) I can move to a new city, which has been planned for years and be in a better place emotionally, and physically.  I will be in a position to make friends and socialize again because here I am totally alone.  Anyways.  Sorry to unload, but I had to somewhere, I know you guys get in the same headspace.  Oh, and Fuck It All (FIA)

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They’re Free TODAY!!! (Sat & Sun)

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Hey Guys!

Both of my books went free today for Memorial Day weekend on Amazon Kindle!  Please repost!  Much Love!

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Read “Anxiety Too” NOW!!!

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It’s finally here!  It’s out and about on Kindle!  Get it now for $9.99! Liz is back with her follow up to “Should I Have Told You That?: A Memoir” with more stories of shenanigans filled with heart involving family and friends. There are more stories of crazy things that happened as a kid, a teenager and a confused, but head strong twenty-something. Even in her thirties you identify with her experiences as an adult through the pages of this book. No matter what situation you are in, or well Liz is in, anxiety is always around and that is what makes this book so hilarious and relatable.

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Crunch Time Is Here Bitches!

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It’s here… I’m halfway done editing my new book!  Eeekkkkkk!  I’m working away at the Bakery.  I hope to have it Posted on Kindle by Monday!  Back to work!

“Anxiety Too”

Much Love!

Life, Uncategorized

Bloggin’ Out

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Hey People!

Sorry the long lag!  It’s been a long week.  I’ve either been at the hospital or at home in bed.  I did get out for a few hours yesterday to go to a festival with a friend and her toddler though.  Don’t worry, I had my MacBook with me as always at the Emergency Room typing away for my upcoming book that I am publishing in a few weeks, “Anxiety Too”.  Nothing keeps me (too) down.  All of you who also have chronic migraine know how we cope!

I did get good news yesterday… I got approved for a Medicaid program that approves my medical expenses for a year!  I am beyond thankful and excited.  Just another step in my road to finalizing all of my disability loose ends.

Aside from working on the book I am hard on the search for an apartment in New York or Brooklyn.  It has been VERY difficult.  It doesn’t matter what city you are looking to rent in, it’s a challenge.  My flight up to see places was pushed back due to medical appointments, so… If you have any leads on roommates or places under $700/month, let me know!

I hope that all of you are having a great end of the weekend.  Back to writing!  FYI, my book is still for sale on Amazon Should I Have Told You That? Six star review, and not just from friends!!!!  Consistent reads on Kindle Unlimited!

Much Love!

P.S.  If you have not check out John Mulaney’s new Netflix special “Kid Gorgeous”!

Life, Uncategorized

Just Making It

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Today is a rough day, I am not going to lie.  I have actually had a rough week.  I usually try to make it to a coffee shop a few times a week to relax and write, but I did not make it once this week.  Most of the week has been spent under my weighted blankets (32 lbs) on  my bed with a migraine, or crying with an anxiety attack, and writing somewhere in-between.  I went to the Emergency Room twice this week due to migraines, and neither time was fun.  I have started getting anxiety attacks about going there because I do know all of the doctors and nurses and I feel horrible that they see me all of the time during my migraine season.  Even though they have all told me that they are glad to see me as a patient in the sense that I am easy because they know what to give me, how to set up the IV for me because they know where to after seeing my arms so many times.  Even after hearing that, knowing that the little airplane next to my name signifying that I am a “frequent flyer” there still makes me uneasy.  I even took my MacBook to the Emergency Room and pounded out a story for my new book before getting meds!  So, I am trying to amp myself up by listening to a Motown mix on Spotify.

On a good front though a little disability news.  I spoke to my Medicaid case worker on Wednesday and got some things cleared up, so it looks like I will be approved for a program that I qualify that basically covers all of my medical premiums and copays, etc.  Yay!

Another positive, I woke up this morning and after taking a shower checked my twitter notifications and saw that a tweet that I sent out three weeks ago about my book was retweeted, and the tweet has been seen over 2K times, and is still growing by the hour!  I spent the day yesterday submitting to agents, and writing.

So far today, my best friend (of almost thirty-years next year) has been adding in memories of things that I forgot about of stories that I started writing.  This really warms my heart because with my first book she stood back during my process of writing and publishing, then waited to read the book with everyone else when it came out.  Now, she is reading stories when I send them along and showing coworkers to prove these things actually happened!

Sorry for a long blog.  I hope everyone is doing well, and that you are all more productive than me today… or as productive as your body lets you be!

Much Love